Key of Black
I started this poem knowing its topic and mood. A very low point. Then I began with a Harlan Ellison short story title: ‘I Have no Mouth but I Must Scream’. I have a strong affinity with the second line. I could have written: ‘i have no mind but i must dream’. However, I like the extra meter (nearly double) – not only in what it says, but also the cadence.
Key of Black
i have no heart but i must scream
i have no mind but i must once again learn how to dream
black crows surround me evermore
black cockroaches abound about my floor
surely this is fantasy
but my steps crunch when I answer the knock
of the orphan at my door
eyes of deep circles
hair a muss
drooping head
and lifeless limbs.
It’s me
the orphan of my hopes
i have no eyes but i must weep
though hard I try, i cannot sleep
black dogs snarl at this empty shell
black cats hiss and abhor my smell
surely this is madness
but animals sense this wretched corpse
and abandon me where i fell
the jagged knife will not come out
the emptiness will not abate
my eyeless sockets rain a never-ending
torrent of my tears
my love has left her taste upon my lips
so cruel to be reminded
my love has left desolation in my bed
so cruel to leave my spirit blinded
my love has been ripped mercilessly from my breast
barren despair is left behind
my love has left me shivering and alone
fear and loathing fill my mind
i have no heart but i must scream
i have no love and so i wither
and so i surely die